it's just my face

Several months back, a friend of my family's posted a Facebook status about it being "I love you Thursday."  I didn't know the reasoning behind it, but I liked it.  So I commented on it that I love her (because I do) and went about my day.  This started the ball rolling and every Thursday from that point on, the two of us have made sure to tell one another that we love each other.  Last Thursday, I was thinking about the fact that I probably tell Peg I love her more than I tell my own father I love him.  Then it got bigger, I probably tell Peg I love her more than I love anyone (besides my mother, I talk to her daily) in my family.  I decided that this is just not right!  I do love Peg, but why should she be the only one aware of my constant and undying love!  Right then, I sent a text to everyone... my mom, dad, step-mom, step-dad, brother, sis-in-law, sister, sister, bff, soul sister.... The responses made me feel good.  Some were funny, ...

I haven't had sex in almost two months!  I've been sober (no drugs, alcohol, cigs) for a week!  I feel like a fucking nun!  I wanna get drunk, smoke a fat joint and have mad crazy sex with someone unfamiliar!  I think I'll make brownies instead.

I haven't been experiencing a large amount of self control lately.  I've been drinking more and staying up too late.  I haven't been getting drunk, just drinking more frequently.  This really effects my training.  I'm tired so I don't want to run.  I eat like shit, because I'd rather order Burger King or pizza than prepare a healthy meal.  I smoke cigarettes when I drink which makes breathing VERY challenging the next day...  All these things are not good!  With my first half-marathon looming, I feel like I need to take a stand so that I don't fall flat on my face when I get there!  34 days is not a long time people! So here goes nothing, starting Friday I will be sober until after my race is completed.  It's a scary thought, simply because I don't know that I will be able to.  And that's like admitting I have a problem.  I really don't think I have a problem.  I'm gonna miss my drinking buddies, but it's only for a litt...