it's just my face

33. Growing up, I thought life ended at 30.  I didn't think I'd ever see the day.  I thought that if I did, I would be miserable, washed-up, OLD.  I didn't see much use in any life that could possibly exist afterward.  I thought that way!  I really did.  It's crazy to think about it now.  My life has only gotten better since then.  And this has been one of the most life changing years thus far.  It has been truly wonderful.  I must admit that reading back over the posts, I see that it started out rough.  I am so grateful for all of the positive changes, new people, and new opportunities that I have had in the last year.  I only see it getting better. My perspective on life is positive.  I am comfortable with myself as a person.  That's something I could never say before.  There are still things that I'd like to change, but if it stayed the same that would be okay.  I have a wonderful son, a job I'm ...

The boy  is still around.  Things haven't changed too much.  Except I feel he will make it to my birthday!  He's a blast.  I can't say his name without laughing out loud.  He doesn't pressure me about anything.  He's perfectly content with the way things are.  And so am I.  I told him about my "episode" kissing another boy on Saturday night.  He didn't flip out, he wasn't jealous.  It was so refreshing.  I can honestly say that I've never been in a relationship like it!  I love hanging out with him.  He's got a great group of friends that I now call my own.  We play cards, we have beers.  They're supportive, down-to-earth, and would give me the shirt off their back if I needed it more.  It's a good thing.  He sleeps over two or three times a week.  I even let him call me baby in public.  We are still not exclusive. Here's the deal.  I'm taking him home this weekend.  Not hom...

I want to take a minute to talk to you about something that is ALWAYS top of mind.  Pubic hair.  Yes, it's strange, I know.  I admit, I think about pubic hair.  Is it just me or has the grooming of pubic hair become an obsession these days?  Has it always been this way and I just didn't notice?  I remember seeing commercials in my early teens about shaving the "bikini area" but I think things have gotten a little out of hand.  Even boys are shaving!  Bald.  Let me be the first to say, when I see a bald set of nuts, I view a man differently.  What's the purpose?  Does he think he appears bigger?  I think he's nuts!  (No pun intended) I can understand why a woman shaves, trims and grooms.  I can imagine choking on a pubic hair while going "downtown" is not fun.  Out of courtesy, I'll keep my parts in check.  No braids.  However, I do not understand the point of bald.  Can someone PLEASE enlighten m...

So 2 weeks have gone by and the boy is still around.  He's not smothering me as much.  I get my space.  He makes me laugh.  He's full of energy.  But I still don't know what I'm doing.  He calls me baby, and I let him.  I don't think I like it, but I let him.  He asked me the other day if we could be exclusive.  I said no.  He was upset, (haha) but he accepted that answer and moved on.  He talks a lot about the future, like plans for my birthday.  All I can think when he talks like that is, "if you're still around" I think he's around because he's filling a void.  I'm tired of being alone.  So I let him sleep over.  I let him call me baby.  Romantic, isn't it?  I wonder what he would think if he knew how I really felt.  I wonder if I should tell him.  Nah.  I've told him this much.  I don't want to be exclusive.  If the opportunity presents itself, I will date o...