13.1

I signed up for my first 1/2 marathon today.  Committed.  Paid for with no refund available.  No turning back!  I am so happy for myself and yet apprehensive at the same time!  I can not believe I have done such a thing.  A year ago there's no way I would believe that I could accomplish such a thing.  Running 13.1 miles?  are you kidding me?  Not now, I got this!  I can do this!

Today I will start "training" for it.  I have been running as much as I can, but now I need to focus on getting ready to run further at one time than I have EVER ran!  No excuses.  This means I need to cut back on my drinking and partying and focus more on taking care of my body.

I'm running this race with an old friend from high school.  Back in those days, we pushed each other to drink more, smoke more, fuck more than we ever had before.  Now we're pushing each other to run further.  It's funny how life works.  I've had people tell me they don't think I can do it.  There's no way.  I'm going to prove them wrong.  I have to prove myself wrong as well.  This is a huge goal.  I'm concerned that some of my friends will not understand and become frustrated with the fact that I'm not out partying with them as frequently as they would like.  My true friends will understand.  This isn't about them, this is about me.  I'm having mixed feelings about this as well.  But if there's one thing I know it's that I can do anything I set my mind to.  Wish  me luck!

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