Sober

I haven't been experiencing a large amount of self control lately.  I've been drinking more and staying up too late.  I haven't been getting drunk, just drinking more frequently.  This really effects my training.  I'm tired so I don't want to run.  I eat like shit, because I'd rather order Burger King or pizza than prepare a healthy meal.  I smoke cigarettes when I drink which makes breathing VERY challenging the next day...  All these things are not good!  With my first half-marathon looming, I feel like I need to take a stand so that I don't fall flat on my face when I get there!  34 days is not a long time people!

So here goes nothing, starting Friday I will be sober until after my race is completed.  It's a scary thought, simply because I don't know that I will be able to.  And that's like admitting I have a problem.  I really don't think I have a problem.  I'm gonna miss my drinking buddies, but it's only for a little while.  Wish me luck!

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  1. SereneApril 29, 2012 at 11:30 AM

    I think this is great - and your body will thank you. They say 1-2 glasses of wine is good for your heart, but I highly doubt that's the reason for most of us. And I highly doubt we have just one. I can't wait to hear what differences you notice.

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