it's just my face

Why is it that at 42 years young, I’m still having raging period cramps?!  Like seriously, did I misunderstand something in Health class?  I swear, Aunt FLo has gotten more and more feisty with age.  I’ve been in bed for a couple days.  The alien that lives in my uterus was using a razor blade to rid it’s lining. It seems as though chronic pain is aggravated by hormone changes. Glad to be upright today.

Our cats are a very important part of my family so I thought I’d do a little post and let you me my pussies... tee hee... This is Abbadon, otherwise known as Abby Sue.  She’s the loner of the bunch.  Her preference is to be alone, in the quiet upstairs, sleeping in a pile of socks.  Abbadon’s got a beautiful voice, and if she uses it with you, feel blessed.  She’s also a fierce killer.  She doesn’t spend much time at home in the summer months.  Our neighbors have mixed feeling about that.  Abby is Dad’s cat, not that it really matters. Her sister also lives here.  Her name is Sprinkles, or sprinks.  She’s loud and obnoxious and always talking.  She likes to look out the windows and sleeps her days away on kitty perches.  If you have ice cream or cereal, your bowl belongs to her.  She’s kind of a bitch about it...  Sprinkles is always the cat that will sleep on my chest when I’m feeling extra stressed.  They ...

Today is my 42nd birthday.  If we’re ranking years of our life for being challenging, this one ranks right at the top.  When I look back on all of the changes this year has brought to my life and the GROWTH.  My perceptions of what is important, and what I will prioritize in my life has changed.  I have lived my life in a way that puts the needs of almost everything ahead of my own.  I allowed my health to become so low on the list of priorities that I damn-near died, all for the cause of my career.  The career that was taken from me when I said I needed to prioritize my health. ** I didn’t write this today, I just forgot to post it on my birthday. ** I went from being a completely independent working woman that handled about 8 million dollars of Whopper sales each year with ease, to a woman who can barely decide which frozen hunk of meat to take out for dinner.  I haven’t been able to pay my house payment in months.  My Jeep is getting reposs...

I figured I should give you a little follow up to my appointment the other day.  I meant to, but alas this is my life now.  I probably saw a bright, shiny object and lost 5 or 6 hours of the day.  It happens more than I care to admit.  Actually, I was rearranging the pantry.  I made it more kid friendly.  I also swept the FUCKING LIVING ROOM!  I say it like that because my kids are pigs.  Also, I should pic up some stock from the Little Debbie corporation and get a little of my money back. My PCP and I had a very productive appointment.  I’m please to announce that not only do I think I have Trigeminal Neuralgia, but she agrees with me.  It’s being treated now and I’m feeling a little better.  I still don’t feel all the way better, but at least I don’t feel like I’m growling all the time.  I have another follow up appointment in a month.  She mentioned the possibility of referring me to another neurologist, that will b...

I wrote this the other day, I forgot to post... “Okay Google, How many days since May 30, 2018?” It’s a question I ask often.  Six hundred and twelve is the tally today.  That’s the day I got hit on the head and everything changed.  The hardest thing for me has been all this fucking PAIN!!  Sometimes it doesn’t hurt, but it feels like there are a million tiny bugs crawling underneath my skin, and it’s itchy or it burns, or it pulls.  MOST mornings I wake up feeling like I got slapped in the face real hard by some dumb drunk girl at the bar, except I was so drunk that I don’t recall the fight.  Except I wasn’t drunk and I didn’t go out and this has been happening like some terrible thing over and over again.  Like Groundhog’s Day, day 613.   I have bad days when I can’t get out of bed because the pain is so severe.  My face hurts, my neck burns, everything twitches, the SOUNDS that come through my right ear aren’t tolerable.  S...