I didn't know what to expect when I saw you.  It's been so long.  I didn't know how you would react to me.  I didn't know how I would react to you.  I thought about it all day.  Worried it would hurt.

It was so nice to see you .  I forgot how easy it is for me to talk to you.  You look great, handsome as ever.  I never thought that leaving you would be this hard.  I still love you.  It makes me wonder why I even left in the first place.  I wonder if I made the right choice.  I am always going to love you.  I will always be proud of you.  I look forward to the day when I stop comparing every lover to you.  Every kiss, every touch.  It's not you.  It's not the same.

It was hard for me to take my eyes off of you .  I could see that you were struggling with the same problem.  I can't stop thinking about that.  I can't help but think about what would have happened if it went a little bit differently.  I thought of jumping on you, throwing my arms around you and laying a big kiss on you.  I miss your kisses.  I miss your touch.  I miss your warmth next to me in the bed.

I know that you and I will never be together again.  I haven't accepted that fact.  I know that we would fall into old habits and both be unhappy once again.  It doesn't make it any easier.  We want different things out of life.  I have to learn to let you go.  This makes me sad.

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