Regrets and mistakes are memories made.

http://youtu.be/NAc83CF8Ejk

This song is perfect for how I'm feeling right now.  One year tomorrow.  I don't regret my decision to move on.  It was the right choice.  I'm a better person for it.  The last year I have grown tremendously.  I'm thankful for the time I've spent with myself, my friends and my family.  I miss him.  I don't miss the person I was with when I left, I miss the person I was with when it all started.  I am fearful that I won't find someone like that again.

I have many great memories with him, and I have regrets.  But we can only learn from our past and try not to make those same mistakes in the future.

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  1. SereneSeptember 26, 2011 at 10:10 AM

    You did the right thing. And yes, you will find someone better. Someone who appreciates you, worships you, and can't wait to come home to you every night. He's a jackass for not wanting to be a better man.

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